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2007-06-09T23:28:00.000+08:00

BYE BYE BLOGGER!
i've moved! ((:
relocate me at: http://xanga.com/withloves_evelyn

2007-06-08T19:42:00.000+08:00

this post is 'specially' for terence (sarcasm) xP

YOU'RE THE BAKA NOT ME.
YOU'RE THE SLOW ONE NOT ME.
YOU'RE THE DUMB ONE NOT ME.
BAKA BAKA BAKA!!!
since you like to spam so much, now my turn. xP
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for the SI of 2007. x)

evelyn- 6000, terence- 0
don't think just because you're SI, you can anyhow bully your junior.
BAKA! x)

2007-06-08T19:20:00.000+08:00

okay....
so, pathetically, we only took photos of 2 animals. -.-

i wonder what's our purpose of going to the zoo...

anyways, went to the zoo with my beloved efm
the animals were damn smelly. =X
something funny that happened
fawn- eh eh eh!!! i want to see the otters!!!
me- lol. fawn! it's smelly, you know!
fawn- oh... they're so cute...
me- lol. *rolls eye*
fawn- woo! OMG
she almost died smelling the smellyness of the otters.
baka. i tried to tell you, but no...
damn funny!!! xD
we went to watch the animal friends show
it was quite lame. lol
then, cabbed to bugis junction
we walked around parco
then went to bugis street
i almost died there!
so crowded! >.<
i don't even know how to buy stuffs from there!
mel went to meet zy, that's why fawn and i were clueless. -.-

something random

i accidentally stepped on an angmoh guy's shoes

me- sorry!

the angmoh guy- *turns around* doesn't matter

it made me wonder...

WHY CAN'T SINGAPOREAN GUYS BE AS GENTLEMANLY AS EUROPEAN GUYS?!
mel came and meet us after sending zy home
then, we walked around parco first
suddenly, mel told us that she needed to go home because of tuition
the taxi queue at parco was so long!
i called for a taxi, but i failed. -.-
in the end, i had to take mrt. >.<
no choice. stopped at jurong east
took cab from there. lol
the taxi driver was damn WTH
don't wish to elaborate so much
today had been a boring day
i feel that the zoo is quite boring nowadays.
i don't know. this is efm's opinion
and melly was acting like a primary 6 girl the whole day!
looking forward to our efm sleepover next tuesday. lol
haha. it'll be a fun time. x)
one last thing for fawn;
don't think so much, seriously
just let nature takes its own course
let it be. don't control stuffs
natural is the best. trust me
i've been through what you're going through now
it's painful, i know.
it hurts you alot, i know
bear with it.
that's why i always tell you that LOVE IS COMPLICATED.
and HAPPY BEST FRIENDS' DAY!
i love my bestie, fawnia sabai.
now and forever... always will... (:

-tellmethatlovedoesnthavetohurt-

2007-06-07T18:15:00.000+08:00

day out with efm again! xD
went to bukit panjang plaza
had mac for breakfast
then, we went for manicure
i'm wondering how i'm going to go back school with my nails!
after manicure, we cabbed to lot 1
watched Shrek 3
quite a nice movie. 3.5 stars~ x)
very meaningful
fawn and mel were damn mean
they tried to imitate me crying
but i don't care and continued watching the movie
baka!!! >.<
but, it really is sad and touching...
after that, we walked around lot 1
mel left because she needed to attend a party or what-so ever
fawn and i just walked around lot 1 aimlessly
then, we cabbed to bpp again to get fawn's bro's pants
we ate the japanese balls thing
then, cabbed home
i swear that my nails are weird and pinky!!!
hmm... maybe i should try painting my nails BLACK one day
act emo huh? haha. xP
it's worth a try. lol
and SOMEONE is damn BAKA!!!
haha. i want to practise my piano already
byebye! ciaos~ (:
by the way, HAPPY 1st MONTH TO MEL & ZHONG YAN.
must last long, okay?
cherish one another.

-itsnotthatidontwanttoforgetyouitsjusttoohardtodoso-

lol.
besties for life. (:

my weird nails. lol

2007-06-06T21:39:00.000+08:00

today was the best day out with efm!
miss the times we spent together
JUST THE THREE OF US... x)
walked the whole of orchard
haha. and we bought efm stuffs!
- butterfly belt
- adidas jersey
- NUM slippers
- URS Inc pumps
- earrings
- crumpler
we got the last crumpler left in the shop
omg! damn fast! >.<
just finished updating about my japan trip
i'm glad that yi jing was my roomie for the past 3 nights in japan
she's really a damn damn damn nice girl. (:
i really miss melly chang chang
finally got to see her. x)
efm 2 years is approaching!!! xD
tomorrow going for manicure with the both of them
i'm missing him damn lots!!!
quite busy this holiday
extra piano lessons, ballet lessons, POC practise, POC stuffs i've to deal with. -.-
efm 2nd year, father's day, dental appointment. -.-
and outings too with my beloved girls. x)
going to chat with 2 bakas already
haha. update tomorrow. (:

-shouldigoonlovingyoubecauseistilldoorhateyoubecauseyourecoldandheartless-

i love my beloved precious ones so so much! <33

sorry for being so zi lian. xP

2007-06-05T23:40:00.000+08:00

FIRST DAY- 29 May` o7

went to the airport at 10pm

cried while bidding farewell to my family members

when i was having dinner at Fish & Co., melly called my hp

she was not able to see us off because of her mum

so, she bidded me farewell on the phone

while she was talking, i cried.

i was so sad that she couldn't make it

i really wanted her hug at that time. x(

in the aeroplane, sat with fawn and val

watched movie and slept. lol

reached japan at 8am

bus-ed for lunch

then, we went to Nagasaki Museum of History and Culture

after that, went to Glover Garden

val and jess kept on searching for shuai ges. lol

val, posted the photos, JUST FOR YOU. x)

there might be a few photos of wit with guys

it's her dare to do so. fawn and i dared her to. xP

then, checked into Nagasaki Inasayama Kanko Hotel

shared room with yijing, yuan er and olivia

i was the last to sleep

went to fawn's room and crapped alot there

then, everyone wanted to sleep

no choice. i went back to my room

packed my luggage and forced myself to sleep. -.-

just woke up. lol

reached japan already! x)

us with the japanese girls
vachy, for you. xP
for val again. lol

valissa yap! song gei ni! xD

after bathing. lol

the hotel room. lol

2007-06-05T21:04:00.000+08:00

SECOND DAY. 30 May` o7~

checked out of the hotel

bus-ed to Nagasaki Atomic Bomb Memorial Museum

then, we had a sharing session with a war survivor

i was amazed by how he was still able to go one

imagine if you're bombed, would you want to live?

plus, your family members all died!

went to Nagasaki Peace Memorial Park

after that, bus-ed about 2-3 hours

reached Aso Farm

cute and nice place! xD

the 'hotel' was damn cute

photos below. x)

the atmosphere was damn cooling and cold

the others went for the public bath

but i didn't. stupid thing!

one word: SUAY! >.<

at night, it got colder and colder

i caught a flu. -.-

i still felt cold even though i was wearing 5 clothings!

-my efm adidas jersey

- my strips sweater

- my NUM sweater

- lifang's sweater

- val's sweater

i regretted not bringing my adidas jacket!

i didn't think that it'd be THAT cold. -.-

anyway, at night, we went walking around

one BIG group of us with mr tan and mr ho

saw the stars.

nice view~ x)

shared one 'hut' with yijing, debbie, jessica, olivia and yuan er

next door are the guys. -.-

(don't be dirty-minded about it.)

ice-cream! xD

the war survivor

kawai~! x)

the cute little 'hotel'! xD

retarded for 5 minutes~ xD

lame for 10 minutes~ x)

miss ang took for us. x)

2007-06-05T01:30:00.000+08:00

THIRD DAY. 31 May` o7~

visited Mount Aso, a real volcano

took a cable car up

the wind was blowing straight into our face

omg! damn cold!!! >.<

went to the museum too

learnt about how the volcano was formed

then, 3 hours bus trip to Kumamoto City

went to kumamoto contemporary art museum

after that, went to kumamoto castle and we climbed till the top!!! x)

then, went to check into kumamoto kotsu centre hotel

room-mate was yijing.

crapped with her at night. haha.

3e2` o7!

2007-06-04T22:26:00.000+08:00

FOURTH DAY IN JAPAN. 1 June` o7~

wore school uniform.

went to visit Minamata Disease Municipal Museum

listened to a survivor and i cried upon hearing what happened to her

i can actually feel her sadness.

during lunch, we were all taking alot of photos

bus-ed for 2 hours, all of us were sleeping

visited Kumamoto Traditional Crafts Centre

then had a huge dinner. had briefing

mr tan made me share about the survivor because i cried. -.-

damn embarrassing!!! i don't like to speak in public!

so i just said a few sentences. lol

went back hotel, did the worksheets

yijing and i went to fawn and wit's room

we were just lazing and talking

haha. it was a nice time.

really enjoyed it. x)

random.

haha! wee-wit! xP

the converse peeps~

2007-06-04T21:51:00.000+08:00

SECOND LAST DAY~ 2 June` o7

had breakfast and left the hotel

3 hours ride before we reached space world

all the rides were damn scary and fun!

i didn't really like the alien thingy though

i was ps-ed to the back! scaryyyyyyy! >.<

fawn, val, jess and i went to take planet AQA

first time, i was the wettest and i didn't have any jackets or ponchos on!!!

i was cold to the core! xP

second and third time, val was the wettest but she had her jacket

and she was swearing like nobody's business. haha

val is hilarious. xD

checked into Hakata Park Hotel

budget hotel! =X

went shopping for the last time

and troubles occur in the middle of the night...

fawn, wit, yijing~ don't think so much about that idiot!

thanks yijing for standing up for me. (:

space world~ x)

THAT scary ride!!! >.<

after a wet ride~!

during dinner;
the forfeited peeps~ xP
HAHAHA!!! xD

2007-06-04T21:37:00.000+08:00

Last day; 3 June` o7~

sayonara japan & hello singapore!

flight took off at 10.30am and reached singapore at 3.40pm

hiroko-san gave us something really touching

i cried upon receiving it. lol

i really regretted not listening to her, instead of my ipod

i shouldn't have blasted my ipod... ):

anyways, i'm damn tired...

i really miss japan alot!

and it was great having YI JING as my room-mate

she is a really damn super nice girl

i love crapping with her! xD

2007-05-28T12:35:00.000+08:00

just came back from piano
i'm damn saddened about today
though i get to go for piano, i'm unable to turn up for ballet
TWO WEEKS, i've not been for ballet already
last week, because i was kind of sick and tired because of camp
this week, because i'm leaving
not enough time...
ballet starts at 6.30pm, but ends at 8pm
by the time, i go home and bathe, had my dinner
it'll be a little late, and it's very rushing for my mum
haiz...
it seems like nothing, but to me, it means everything
don't want to talk about it anymore.
meeting efm at causeway point after fawn finishes her parents-teacher meeting
going to have our last meal together before fawn and i leave later
i think i'll just leave my blog the way it is now
have a fun time while i'm away...
i'll be missing melissa chang chooi yan marie, miss me too. xP
i'll miss him... xD
efmvka~ mel. ker jyn. autard. x(
i'll also miss my shifu, joel fan. lol
before i end off, i want to wish BERNICE ONG a very happy birthday in advance. x)
EVELYN IS MISSING IN ACTION FROM 29 May 2007-3 June 2007. (:

-imalreadymissingthosementionedpeeps-

2007-05-27T23:32:00.000+08:00

full day out with my beloved efm. xD
went to orchard and watched Pirates of the Carribean
the movie is freaking nice!!!
four and the half stars! xD
lol. went last-minute shopping
something random: i'm currently loving my new pullover alot
anyways, the movie was seriously damn nice!
efm~ after come back from japan, must have POC marathon
haha. my house. x)
i'm currently busying packing my stuffs last-minute. -.-
omg. i shouldn't have done it last minute
i should have listened to my mum, fawn, mel and val.
sorry!!!!!! >.<
tomorrow is my last day in singapore
might update tomorrow morning
see first. xP
just in case i don't update...
wish those who are having their 'o's this week, all the best.
i will miss CHANG CHOOI YAN MELISSA MARIE zheng cui yan the MOST!!! >.<
i'll miss efmvka~ MELLY CHANG CHANG. NEO KER JYN. AUTARD. ):
although fawn and val are with me, it won't be the same...
tag my blog to keep it alive, though i won't have the chance to update till 3 June 2007
my luggage and crumpler are already bursting and i haven't put finish EVERYTHING!!!
omg~~~ wish me all the best over there
hopefully nothing happen. =X (touch wood!!!)
lol. i'll miss my mummy, daddy, my bro, melly chang chang and him (=X)~~~!
i feel sad already... damn it!
melly, i promise to call you everyday! x)
*muacks to melly* <33
(i ain't a les. )
TAKE CARE EVERYONE!!! (:

-illsurelymisseveryoneespeciallyefmvkaandhim-

2007-05-26T17:51:00.000+08:00

woke up with my left eye swollen
the swollen part is at the upper part. -.-
was supposed to go for piano
but the time was clashed with my bro's art lesson
so, i postponed it to monday. lol
after fawn's tuition, we cabbed to causeway point
walked around and bought stuffs for our japan trip
lad our lunch at pastamania
saw brendan, afiqa, sheela, dan and bindu there too
bought alot of stuffs
didn't manage to find my bro's red nike water bottle
lol. the repeatation of us last time again. -.-
(long story... )
fawn was shirt-hunting the whole time. lol
don't worry, fawn. still got tomorrow. x)
bought another pullover
I LOVE IT LOTS!!! xD
going to wear it to japan!
random: efm's surname is LOVE. x)
fawn and i thought of it while we were at pastamania. lol
i know it's abit lame. xP
i want to go and practise my piano already
3 more days... x)
ciaos~ (:

-sisterloveismorethanimportantthanboyfriendlove-

2007-05-25T18:33:00.000+08:00

today was quite a bad start for me...
came to school, almost fell down. -.-
then, was waiting for my cd to 'fly' back to me. lol
i rested on the table for awhile, i got shocked. >.<
my cd flew back to me! xP
sorryyyyyyyyyy!!!! >.<
didn't mean to dao you!
i didn't know what to say!
seriously really sorry. xP
recess was bad
4-5 levels were squeezed together
so, didn't manage to buy my wanton mee... ):
went back to class and had use-our-hands campaign
i was chosen by miss toh to help the other teachers. -.-
10 of us were asked to clean staircase 4
silvia and me were cleaning on the same spot!
we were practically slacking down there!
went to carry the water until temp structure and went back again. lol
some water spilled onto my skirt. lol!
but it was fun! x)
got back my report book
fawn, val and i cabbed back to my house
slacked and cabbed to bpp
was supposed to meet melly
but something happened to her
then went for our manicure and pedicure
i love my pedicure! xD
haha. stars again.
lol. going to eat my dinner already
4 more days...
take care.
ciaos~ (:

-thinkingofyouissomethingpainfulwhymakemehurt-

2007-05-24T21:32:00.000+08:00

morning was hilarious
because of what melly did. x)
and some other stuffs too.
heard from joel that tomorrow is mrs choo's last day in bvss
i was damn sad when i hear it
who's going to call me eve?
who's going to motivate us?
who's going to encourage during our summary tests?
who's going to let us watch movie?
who's going to encourage us whenever we need someone?
who's going to help us?
feel like crying already...
don't want to elaborate any further
so, went to bpp with efm after japan trip meeting
my mum went to see miss toh just now. lol
and miss toh said that i was quiet and shy. -.-
the same comment every time the teacher tells my mum. -.-
went to bpp and went girl-shopping
had lunch at cafe cartel
then cabbed home
i slept on the sofa when i reached home
then, my mum woke me up and went to bpp (again!)
had jack's place for dinner
hilarious! i just went there!
omg. tomorrow is the last day of term 2
quite sad about it...
half the year has past...
very soon, it'll be my turn to sit for my 'O's
well... it's a phase which everyone has to go through
it's later or sooner...
i feel stress whenever i think of 'O's
i seriously need to a self-reflection before the next semester starts
no mood to watch drama
very tired....
damn it. addicted to jie kou by S.H.E
thanks to SOMEONE! >.<
stupid guy! xP

-whereareyou?iseriouslyneedtotalktoyounow-

today, 24 May 2007~

yesterday, 23 May 2007~

2007-05-23T18:24:00.001+08:00

add. maths was boring because of the teacher. -.-
went to westmall, bukit panjang plaza and lot 1 with efmv
at popular, a guy approached me, asking me if i know the person on the ez-link card
i realised that it was april.
then, the guy asked us to pass it back to her
while val and i were cabbing back home, mel called me
so, went back to lot 1 and returned the wallet back to april
sad that we couldn't make our name card. ):
damn irritated with some stuffs right now
okay. whatever. don't want to elaborate further
i'm just pissed off.

-themoreyouwantit,themoreyouwontgetit-

2007-05-22T19:42:00.000+08:00

today was another super slack day for me
maybe, even slacker!
woke up, my left eye was abit swollen
didn't attend PE. laid on melly's shoulder.
english, mrs choo let us watch movie, then i so-called slept abit. lol
then physics, mr hong still in reservice, so no lesson
the same relief teacher came, and all of us were just slacking
doing nothing. lol
e. maths, slack also!
miss toh was just talking to us about some stuffs
history also slack... xP
haha. today totally slack! x)
val's 'best friend' is miss cheong
melly and my 'best friend' is mr nazar
fawn's 'best friend' is mr zul
haha. it was random!
and just now during recess, we saw our 'best friends'!
after school, went for the japan trip meeting
then, waited for my mum to fetch me to piano
and she forgot to bring my piano books for me!
in the end, had to go home
luckily, we just drove past my house, then my mum quickly made a turn in
anyway, quite busy with POC now
and about the japan trip because need to prepare so much stuffs
there's the damn parents-teacher meeting which my mum doesn't want to go
okay. never mind
going to do my add. maths homework.
i seriously will work super duper (x2) harder now

-itisnttruethatonlystupidpeoplegooverseastostudy-

2007-05-21T19:25:00.000+08:00

today was a super slack day!
mr hong didn't come, so a relief teacher came in
slept for awhile, then did my stuffs already. -.-
the relief teacher let us watch the movie 'Drumline'
while waiting for mr tan to come in for VE
all of us were outside class making hell lots of noise!
then, we were all running here, screaming, pushing each other
haha. the guys were busy pushing valentine. lol
i was just telling jess that scarly miss gopal appeared
and true enough, SHE APPEARED!
at first, someone was like, "ouh! miss gopal come already!!!"
then, all of us quickly ran inside classroom and settled down and kept super quiet
lol. but she didn't come into class. *phews*
after awhile, we made noise again and ran out of class again
suddenly, all of us went into classroom
miss gopal entered. xP
she made us clean the classroom and took out our newspaper to read. lol
autard came in late because of his pure sciences, got scolded by miss gopal. -.-
jsut because his pants is low. -.-
we were having 2 free periods and in the end, we still made alot of noises. lol
school was dismissed, efm went to bukit panjang plaza
celebrated our belated 23rd month. xP
had swensen's for lunch.
something random, i was pouring ice into my cup
suddenly, fawn was telling us some stuffs
i was pouring the ice slowly, suddenly, i heard something and the whole chunk of ice went *bish* into my cup and the whole drink overflow!
lol. it was so retarded and embarrassing!!! xP
before we left school, efm + ber sat at study area for awhile
then, stupid fawn went to steal my hair clip!
i was like looking for it everywhere!
i asked her to return me, but she claimed that she didn't take it
i had to check her, mel, ber's bag!
in the end, i found it under my pullover
fawn initally took it away and faked that she didn't!
after i walked away, she went to put it under my pullover!
damn it! i got tricked!!! >.<
didn't go for ballet
too tired and my whole body is aching!!!
thanks to camp! i was actually looking forward for ballet
i'm still too tired to do my homework!
7 more days to japan trip~ quite looking forward to it. x)
and today is my 14th month liking him...
i didn't expect myself to like someone till so long.
but i got to see him last friday and it's HAPPINESS! (:
by the way, terence is JUST my senior and nothing else
PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE! stop saying that we are more than that
seriously, we are just senior-junior. that's all. (full-stop, end of explanation)

-youbrightenmeuponfridayandthatwastheonlyhappypartofcamp-

the 'shit' which we made at swensen's. lol

2007-05-20T13:15:00.000+08:00

YAY!!! i survived npcc annual camp!!! xD
last friday, rushed to school because i went home to take my stuffs. -.-
fall in and we were dispersed into groups
i'm in group 1 (Theron). lol
sherilyn, 'japanese', teck kia, ramzi (?), hariff (?), alisa, rita, one sec 1 i can't remember. =X
haojie was the leader, i was the assistant.
and our group nco is ma'am wen xin
cleaned up our bunks, then bunk inspection
inspector fairuz pumped us like omg... >.<
then, changed into full-u, had drills
learnt slow march.
i kept on looking on the floor!!!
i don't know! i'm supposed to be 'confident', but i'm not. -.-
a few hours of drills, witri, iqbal and me went LT for japan briefing
my mum didn't go, she can't be bothered. lol
after the briefing ended, we went back np
changed into our PT kit, then went to bathe
after that, had dinner
stupid LEE HAO JIE!!! BAOTOH KIA!!!
idiot! go and sabo me!!!! >.<
anyway, we were thinking of a group name
and sir salleh was being retarded and said that our name should be called potato or rojak. -.-
then he told us some lame things that if we looked up at the tree while eating, we'll get nightmares!
and one thing, ME AND HAO JIE ARE NOT A COUPLE!!! for the one thousand and one time!
finished dinner, went for games
played ambush and bang!
our group went first
i got shocked by the loud 'explosions'
sir jialong, sir lohes, ma'am juliana, sir weilun, ma'am chiu yan, sir bruno
those people made me suffer from heart attack
okay... finished our games, had TCSS with the ncos
then, had supper
got ready for solo night
i slept at 4th level, old block, outside the new study area
damn scary, i didn't dare sleep
i didn't have my torchlight with me either BECAUSE sir weilun borrowed it and never return
whatever. then, around 3am, fawn and ma'am fadilla came
was talking to fawn and nabilah's lip swelt up
mr tan and sir weijie came soon
caught me not sleeping. xP
then, asked me go and sleep. -.-
how do they expect me to sleep with the guys from sports camp being so noisy?!
and the ncos are having santry duty, their torchlight kept on shining into my eyes, and their walkie-talkie making so much noise!!! >.<
irritated. lol
the time i managed to sleep 'peacefully', sir lohes came and wake me up. -.-
went to wash up and got ready for PT
stupid. damn tiring!!!
my whole body was aching, but i still managed to pull through without being a casualty! xD
haha. satisfied. (:
we were made to run 25 rounds, but in the end, we didn't run THAT much.
then, breakfast.
didn't eat. lol
after that, went to change into full u
sec 3s were late, then we were having changing parade for almost 20 minutes
because inspector fairuz wasn't happy with us.
full u to half u to full u again
then pumpings. -.-
had our drills revision with ma'am cherlyn, later on was inspector haireel
I DID BADLY FOR MY PROMOTION TEST!!!
i confirm plus chop won't pass sergeant!
i can't pass sergeant and 2nd class drill!!!
we were uninformed about the 2nd class drill badge test! >.<
irritated. -.-
luckily i was taken by inspector haireel
but i did quite alot of advanced drills and yang tinggi!
i remembered!!! xD
we stood under the sun for a damn long time
and i got pumpings because i said 'afternoon sir'
omg. i realised that i called him sir NOT inspector!
damn it. got pumpings for that. -.-
we were all dying under the sun, it was burning us to death!
after a long time, we went to change into our PT and had lunch
haojie kept on complaining to me that he had abrations (?)
lol. then i had to help out with the cooking. -.-
but it's okay, sec 3s should help juniors. (:
after lunch, went for campcraft
it was quite boring. =X
ma'am juliana took us at first
but she was fed-up and told us to find sir jialong.
learnt lashings from ma'am juliana in the end
after that, got ready for games
it was some kind of obstacle
station 1: tie 8 basic knots and 1 lashing
station 2: form phrases related to np from the words given
station 3: all of us, our legs were tied, something like 3-legged race and i almost died!
station 4: entangle. sir weilun went to tickle all of us. we were trying to cross here and there, but he kept on poking our sides! >.<
station 5: some water balloon thingy
then, had another game
this time, we used the small towel to blindfold our eyes
we were just sitting and waiting
suddenly, if i'm not wrong, ma'am ainah or liyana went to put powder on my cheeks!!!
omg! then sir weilun came and put powder into my hair!
awhile later, he added hair gel!!!
the more i touched my hair, the more hair gel he put
then, i was asked to take out my hairclip
and he went to mess up my hair!!! >.<
my fringe, the top of my hair, my ponytail!!!
suddenly someone splashed water on me!!!
another blew powder into my mouth!
if i'm not wrong, sir weilun went to put powder on my neck too!!!
and he asked me if i was okay, i said ya.
then he put more powder on my face and my forehead and my hair again!
irritated!!! >.<
someone asked me to stand up
when i stood up, someone went to splash me with water!
then, in the end, went into the whatever thingy
i don't even know what it was! blindfolds. -.-
after that, the game ended
went to bathe, then had group interaction
discussed about our advertisements
in the end, we managed to come up with something
then, we had dinner
THANKS TO THE CIS and NCOS who bbq-ed for us!
and THANKS MRS MOK and MR TAN for buying the food for us!
i didn't eat much. no appetite. -.-
then, we had our so-called campfire
no fire. xP
sang songs, performed our advertisement
it was quite an embarrassment. =X
but it was okay. xP
then, went to get ready for sleeping time
my group people didn't sleep
we need to report for santry duty at 11.55pm
2 ncos were attached to our group, ma'am sylvia and sir weilun. -.-
i was irritated by sir weilun!
because of his retard-ness, childish-ness, and non-stop teasing!!!
okay. whatever
then, walked around until 1am, went back to sleep
sherilyn and i slept on the floor because the tables were very cramped
suddenly, inspector fairuz and haireel came in
omg! they went to steal our uniforms again!
but they didn't managed to
later on, they only managed to steal 2 sets of girls' uniform
then, had fire drill
had changing parade again. -.-
PT to half u, half u to mufti, mufti to full u, full u to PT
damn tiring!!! >.<
then around 5am, we were sent back to sleep
woke up at 6.30am, then washed up
got ready to fall in at 7am
no PT, had breakfast
didn't eat, as usual...
packed our bags, area-cleaning
my group- washed toilet!
WHY AM I ALWAYS STUCK WITH GROUPS WASHING TOILET?!?! >.<
but we did it very fast, so nothing to do
other groups didn't want our help
then ma'am chiu yan suggested that we helped them to carry their bags
and damn it!
i got bullied again!!!
sir weilun asked me to carry his bag!
damn heavy!!! >.<
arghhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
then, waited for the other groups to finish
sang songs, gave out prizes
de-briefed by sir lohes, mrs mok, inspector haireel and fairuz
then went home!
seriously, i'm damn tired now.
don't feel like going out at all
don't feel like going to school tomorrow...
oh ya!
OMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
HE came back to school last friday!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i was so happy like nobody's business!!!!!!!!!!!!
OMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMG!!!!!!!!!!
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh! finally he came back after i waited so long!
something for those who misunderstood
HAOJIE AND I ARE NOT A COUPLE!!!!
and terence is just my senior and nothing else. (full stop)
i like someone else, okay! >.<
i want to go and retrieve back my loss of sleep
take care~
CIAOS~ (:

-iwassohappythatyoucamebackatleasticanseeyouagain-

2007-05-17T17:39:00.000+08:00

good news!!! x)
i managed to pass my combined humanities
THANK YOU MR TAN!!! xD
haha. just now, had 3 free periods
because mrs ngiam didn't come for f&n
e. maths, we were arranging our files
and miss toh allocated us groups
then, angie was the 'leader'
joel was like so gan chiong in everything
kept on rushing angie... -.-
after school, went to find miss zan
thank goodnes that one burden is off my shoulder. xD
well... not exactly 100% off. xP
anyways, val, fawn and i wanted to cab to westmall because it was drizzling
but alot of people were 'snatching' cabs from us!
damn it. >.<
then, a taxi came from the opposite direction
and weilun and his friends wanted to hail the cab
but we hailed it before them
then, we were jay-walking over to the other side of the road =X
i heard weilun shouting at us, saying that we stole 'his' taxi
they're sec 4s, so have privilege
and called me 'np de np de!!!'
lol. after that, say that i'll die tomorrow
(if i didn't hear wrongly) xP
then, we made a U-turn back
hakim went to stand on the road
and put out both his hands, almost wanting to stop us from going
but eventually, he went back standing at the bus-stop
i'm so scared!!! >.<
i know weilun is my senior, but i'm still scared about it.
arghhh!!! hope nothing happen to me tomorrow.
damn it. i should have just let them have the taxi
but, we waited for 10 minutes and they just came out from school
and rightfully, the driver wanted to take us!
but, i still hope that he won't do anything against me
plus! i still have to go for camp for three days with him being there too!
omg. how am i going to survive?!
i'm damn worried for my promotion test
can i pass sergeant?!
i don't have any confidence, i'm seriously freaked out!
i haven't pack my stuffs yet
anyway, i don't even bother. -.-
i don't even feel like going to camp!
total waste of my time! =X
whatever. for the sake of promotion test, i'll just go...
anyway, i want to thank my senior, terence, for helping me in my revision for my drills
thanks for all your help, hope that i can pass and not let you down. (:
please please please don't let weilun bear any grudge because i'm damn worried. >.<
HAPPY 6th MONTH TO FAWN&ALVIN. <33
-many loves. (:
wish me luck for camp, hopefully i'll survive. xP
oh ya, HAPPY 23rd MONTH TO EFM IN ADVANCE!!! <33
the three of us won't be free for efm 23rd month celebration
all of us are having camp. can't be helped
but, i still love FAWNIA SABAI & CHANG CHOOI YAN MELISSA MARIE. (:

-yourenothingbutwhyamistillmissingyou-

this pic is taken last month, but i love my efm. xP

2007-05-16T19:40:00.000+08:00

yay!!! finally i can use coloured fonts for blogger again!
okay... i was quite sad in the morning
don't ask me. i don't know
and there was a black-out this morning in the temp structure. lol
my classroom door knob is spoiled again
it doesn't sound bad, but it is!
it is spoilt at the front part!
which every one needs to open it to go in
and because of the stupid doorknob, i had to open the door for anyone who wants to go in
i feel like a hotel person who keeps on opening door for people! -.-
mdm ros re-marked our f&n, and i got higher than what i previously had!
so happy! x)
THANKS MDM ROSLINA~!
after school, went to westmall to buy some stuffs
then, fawn, jess, pam and i cabbed to fawn's house
we went to her house to do some stuffs
the three of them were doing some stuffs for their seniors
while i'm doing stuffs for MY seniors. xP
(different ccas...)
i was so busy!!!
i couldn't think because jess was beside me going crazy!
lol. and fawn kept on spilling the bottle of glitters!
OMG. she wasted alot! xP
and stupid sw kept on comparing his results with me! >.<
damn it!
we still don't have the camp kit list!
this is damn pathetic! camp is in 2 more days and we still don't have the list!
anyways, i'm 110% prepared for changing parade and lots and lots of pumpings
but now, i'm going to watch my drama
and I STILL NEED TO LEARN FOR MY DRILLS!
and I LOST MY PAPER!
and SOMEONE HAVE YET TO TEACH ME!
okay... whatever
i'm going to bathe and watch my drama
haha. ciaos~ (:

-youarenothingbutaheartlessfreak-

2007-05-15T17:51:00.000+08:00

got back the rest of results today
but all i can say is that i'm damn disappointed in myself
i don't know what to say
just feel like killing myself
anyone wants to kill me?
just uploaded pictures taken during my ballet exam
me and my ballet mates. x)
just came back from piano
saw an ex-senior of mine, but not him.
haiz... damn sad now
and there's that stupid npcc annual camp this friday!
and i'm damn freaking NOT prepared for it!
and i'm going to fail!
and i could just die!!!
i'm not in the camp mood currently
no mood at all! >.<
i lost the commands paper, and i forgot all my commands and drills!
never mind. i can just happily fail my sergeant.
i think i'm going to fail sergeant
i've no confidence of passing.
arghhhh! whatever.

-justletmeseeyouonemoretimeandafterthatillstarttounloveyou-

2007-05-14T17:10:00.000+08:00

i cannot put coloured fonts for blogger again!
damn it! it is screwed again!!! >.<
okay. whatever
today was a bad day for me
got back my chemistry, physics, chinese, some of english, f&n, add. maths
all of my results are shit!
i don't wish to elaborate further
the thought of it makes me want to cry.
whatever. -.-
went out with efm for lunch
was at lot 1 and crapped at KFC
then, walked the whole of lot 1
almost died there. -.-
nowadays, everywhere is boring!!!
there's nowhere to go!
i'm sick of westmall!!! >.<
don't feel like typing anymore
sorry for the random photos below. xP
going for ballet soon
ciaos~ (:

-ishouldnthavemixedmypersonalaffairswithstudies-

2007-05-13T21:18:00.000+08:00

WTH!!!
why did blogger go back to normal when i changed to xanga?!
never mind. i'll still update both.
visit my xanga account: http://www.xanga.com/wishing_uponastar
link it too. (:

2007-05-13T20:07:00.000+08:00

HAPPY MOTHERS' DAY TO ALL MUMMYS~
i want to thank my mum for everything she has ever done for me
although we had our conflicts, we are still closer than ever
my mum is abit like my best friend.
haha. even fawn and melly said so too. xP
went out with my mum, bro, grams, grandad and maid to heeren
had our dinner at the village
my stomach is bloated, i swear!
my bro and i were enjoying the chocolate fondue. x)
thanks mum for buying me the sweater and shirt at liz caliborne
it is supposed to be mothers' day and i should be the one buying for her
but it was the other way round! xP
she bought for HER mum and HER daughter (who is me)
lol. but i did buy present, okay!
me and bro bought two precious moments figurings
my bro didn't exactly buy it, i helped him to buy
get it? never mind. -.-
i'm still dead by the way.
don't intend to revive myself.
my mum is always there for me, like yesterday
i regretted throwing my temper at her just because of my personal affairs. >.<
arghh! whatever.
i stopped crying since afternoon before we left the house
my eyes were swollen from yesterday and today's crying
arghhh! damn pain! >.<
going to watch my drama already
i lost my commands paper AND annual camp is held this week!!!
omg!!!
AND we'll be getting our results back tomorrow!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
double omg!!!!!!

-stopmakingmefretoveryouimsupposedtobeoveryou-

2007-05-12T17:13:00.000+08:00

currently not in the mood for anything
i just want to go to bed and sleep till there's no tomorrow
i don't want to wake up
i just want to lay there forever
i don't want to face anyone or anything
i just feel like dying
i've seriously suffered enough!
if i were given a choice, i'd chose to die.
if i could, i would. but i can't, so i won't.
i might as well die rather than suffer in this world.
i'm certified dead anyways.
just treat it as if i don't exist
whatever.
i'm gone. dead.

2007-05-11T21:37:00.000+08:00

went to sentosa with my loves
fawnii sabaji. melly chang chang. vally laopo
along with zy, alvin and jonathan
jonathan left early.
sw, kj and sly were supposed to join us, BUT... FORGET IT! -.-
took lots of photos
was emo and crazy at times
lunch at delifrance and dinner at sakae sushi
cable car-ed from mount faber park to sentosa
damn cool! xD
sorry to val and fawn for grabbing you all during the 4D magix. >.<
stupid FAWNIA! MELISSA! VALISSA!
went to bump into me during the luge!
i was already damn scared! stupid!
made me scream even more!
fine lah! just make me lose my voice again! >.<
during the skyride, val threw a piece of tissue paper down
and it landed on the one of the trees! haha!!! xD
most of our time was spent at palawan beach.
WE WITNESSED SOMETHING DISGUSTING!!!
a woman was literally building something with castle
fawn, val, alvin and me were laughing like crap about it!
then we told mel about it. xP
she was jumping about like a monkey
a guy (i think is her boyfriend), was using his hp shooting it at her
might be filming her or taking photos of her
her fats were like OH MY GAWDDDDDDD!!!!!!!!
you can die! >.<
and you know what she made?!
a woman with actual 'fronts'
alot of teenagers walked past it and sniggered about it!
we witnessed a wedding couple taking photos at the beach too. x)
it was romantic. =X
and we saw the sunset!!!
it was nicer than the other time we saw!
okayyyyyyy...
i'm damn tired now
and i'm literally coughing every second!
even though my voice came back a bit, it still wasn't my normal voice yet
hope that it'll recover by monday
tomorrow then update.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY to DEBBIE!!! (:

-youforcedmetofacethecoldhurttruthyou'reheartless-

2007-05-10T21:29:00.000+08:00

went out to orchard with efmv
thanks for the outing
i really need it
i'm damn irritated and pissed off with someone
i feel like slapping the person
arghhhhhhh! whatever.
i'm still coughing and my voice is still dead
damn it!
i want my voice back!!!!!!!!!
stupid ker jyn spam me! >.<
something scary happened to us!!!
we were waiitng to cross the road
suddenly, we saw mak hui min and fiona cheong
they ran behind us
you know why?
because they were filming something IN FRONT!!!
OMG!!! i almost died! >.<
another scary thing
me and val carried the same adidas bag!
me and mel wore the same skinny jeans and same converse shoes!
mel and fawn carried the same NUM bag!
me and val wore the same type of shirt!
OMG!!! we were all shocked by it!
haha!!! xD

-ihateyouwhatkindofattitudeisthatyou'regivingme?!-

2007-05-09T17:21:00.000+08:00

YAY!!!
today is my last paper!
fawn still has her POA paper 1 tomorrow
val has her chemistry too. lol
haha!!! happy!!!
but my voice is seriously dying!
i can't talk!!!
I WANT TO RECOVER AS SOON AS POSSIBLE!!!!!!!!!
arghhhhhh!!!
just now, went to coffee bean to wait for fawn to finish her POA 'tuition'
efmv + zy went to causeway point
walked from bottom to the top
ate at pastamania
then, we cabbed home
i think i'm on my way to unloving him
it's been 2 months since i last saw him
there's no point in waiting
but, info for someone
I WILL NEVER ACCEPT YOU!!!
NO MATTER WHAT, I JUST WON'T!
i'd rather choose someone else.
thanks to those who showed care and concern
i really appreciate it. (:

-it'snopointthinkingofyouwhenitisimpossible-

2007-05-08T17:50:00.000+08:00

1 more paper! 1 more day!!!
JIAYOUS!!!
had my history and e. maths paper 2
i remembered everything for history!!!
i think i can pass!
YAY!!! don't need to drop to geography already!!!
melly chang chang! cannot drop to CS!!! xP
e. maths paper 2, i survived!!! xD
but got a few questions, i didn't know how to do
i have a feeling that i'll score better for add. maths than e. maths
lol. it's weird. xP
saw kai shi at west mall just now
don't know if i should go for the bbq... >.<
THAT IDIOT IS GOING JAPAN TOO?!?!?!?!
I CAN'T BELIEVE IT!!!
DAMN IT!!! I'LL DIE!!! I'M SERIOUS!!!
fancy facing him for 5 more days!
OMG. What the heck is this?!?!
tomorrow is my last paper, jiayous!!!
I CAN MAKE IT! x)
sorry val for ps-ing you alone at coffee bean
i didn't have any voice to talk again. -.-
wth. just now, went for piano lesson, cannot sing aural!!!
ARGHHHHHHH!!! i want to get well soon!!!!!!!!!!
terence... why must you say things that are so zun?!?!
arghhh!!!
why are all the shits happening to me?!?!?!
SERIOUSLY!!! >.<
CAN'T STAND IT!!!
oh ya, congrats to mel and zy
must last long, okay? (:
070507- mel&zy
171106- fawn&al
<33

-iwishthaticanbesomeonemorethanme-

2007-05-07T20:10:00.000+08:00

today is NPCC day!
woke up with a fever, but still i had to attend school. -.-
wore mufti to school.
reached school and changed into full u
then, went to fall in for morning assembly
this year SI- terence and cherlyn
stupid guy! faker!!! PURE FAKER!!!
act only!!! stupid dumb dumb!!! xP
told you that nothing will happen!
awhile say you scared, then now? not scared. -.-
PURE LAMER!!! PURE FAKER!!! =X
don't want say already. later i go back np, sure got pumpings. =X
i was worried that i might faint. >.<
had e. maths paper 1
too sick to think properly
but, i still managed to do everything and slept until time's up
recess, efm went to bookshop to buy the stuffs needed for physics
suddenly, i ran to the toilet and vomitted.
i vomitted last night's dinner which was sushi. -.-
arghhhh!!! but i felt slightly better
then, went to eat
only ate 3 mouths of the wanton mee
i was still too sick to do my physics paper 2 properly
WTH!!! fail already
100% plus chop fail physics already. >.<
MR AWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW!!!!
why must you set such a hard paper?!?!?!?!?!
after physics ended, went to change into mufti
sat at the study area
mel was sort-of teaching me history. lol
then, i was feeling damn sick
so, fawn and me cabbed home
my mum cooked lunch for me. x)
then, went to sleep until dinner time
going to study for my history after i finished blogging
3 more papers, 2 more days~
JIAYOUS!!! (:
THANKS FOR THOSE WHO ASKED ME IF I WAS OKAY.
the fact is, i'm seriously sick to the core.
hope that i'll get better tomorrow. x)
THANKS FAWNIA SABAI & MELISSA CHANG!!!
-for helping me to carry my bag
-for waiting for me while i was vomitting
-for helping me to buy the compass and protracter
-for helping me to buy wanton mee and drink
-for accompanying me home
-for those hugs.
I LOVE EFM!!! <33
HAPPY NPCC DAY TO ALL CADETS AND OFFICERS! (:

-efmisirreplaceable,theyaremoreimportantthanhim-

2007-05-06T22:40:00.000+08:00

ATTENTION: ALL NPCC CADETS

tomorrow is np day. all cadets, please bring your full u
wear mufti (np shirt & np uniform bottom) to school
come to school and change into full u
fall in at 7am sharp outside npcc room

this is so pathetic!
i'm passing this stupid message around like mad!
i'm studying for my physics!
why can't i get any peace?!

2007-05-06T18:01:00.000+08:00

okay... something is seriously wrong with blogger
arghh! whatever!
in the morning, went to the St. Joseph church fun fair with fawn
and i saw li fang there. x)
then, cabbed home
bathed, cabbed to mel's house
went there to study
zy was there too. lol
i became emo. -.-
partly because of someone who ditched me
and also other reasons
i'm having a headache now
don't want to frustrate so much
go and study already~
before i end off, there is something i have to say
terence, tomorrow is the big day
must have confidence, you can do it!
you'll be fine, everything will be okay.
JIAYOUS!!! all the best~ (:

-i'vefallenintotheseaoflovebutiwanttogetoutofit-

2007-05-05T20:40:00.000+08:00

something is wrong with blogger again! -.-
wth!!! >.<
two dummies ditched me on the handphone!
never mind. i'm going to return back to my revision
ciaos! (:

-icanbarelyyouwhispertomeanymore-

2007-05-04T22:29:00.000+08:00

FINALLY!!!!!!!
one load off my mind. xP
f&n paper today i was damn scared that i couldn't remember anything
but the paper turned out to be quite easy
but no confidence of getting As or Bs. >.<
i studied until midnight and this morning woke up, studied one more time
if i fail my f&n, i'll just cry. x(
after f&n, fawn, val and me went to mac to eat breakfast
then, we cabbed to fawn's house we watched some kids central show
while watching Sabrina, all three of us fell asleep on fawn's sofa. xP
when i woke up, the show was Hi-5
val and fawn were still sleeping
then slowly, val woke up too
while fawn was still sleeping, the both of us talked about choir stuffs and others too
when mickey mouse clubhouse finished, fawn woke up
and her whole uniform was crumpled! xD
after that, she went to call alvin to go up to her house
then, we called a cab and cabbed to jurong point bought tickets for Spider-man 3
then, went to KFC to wait for mel
around 5.10pm, went to buy food and entered the cinema
at the beginning part of the movie, i started to cry
there were sudden scenes and i went to grab val and mel without knowing. lol
and my hp dropped onto the floor. lol
at the end of the movie, i cried again. -.-
after that, we went to Fish & co. for dinner
zy came to find mel. xP
then, val left earlier
pangseh me with TWO couples. x(
then, fawn, alvin and me cabbed home
i feel like a gooseberry!!! >.<
arghhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
next paper is e. maths and physics! >.<
WTH! can die! xP
and monday is NP day -.-
OMG!i'm going to wear my old uniform
no time to sew the formation sign onto the new one
no time to polish boots
no time to change my crest
oh ya, one more thing...
terence, you'll be fine!
nothing will happen! you won't make a fool out of yourself.
i believe you can do it lah! don't need to be so scared! x)
haha. oh ya, val slapped me just now.
I HATE YOU! just joking. xP

-youleftwithoutawordyouwalkedawaysilently-

2007-05-03T19:40:00.000+08:00

today was a weird day for me. -.-
had chemistry paper first
almost no time to finish! >.<
then had add. maths
hope that i can get at least 40. xP
after paper ended, cabbed to fawn's house
then had lunch and watched tv
we were watching Jay Jay the Jet Plane
and i went mad! xD
we were playing with fawn's nail polish too
i helped mel paint her toes
then, painted my own fingernails rainbow colour. x)
around 3pm, mel went to meet zy at west mall
then fawn and i went to the clubhouse and studied
we were not in the mood to study. -.-
but, i still forced myself to study
was sms-ing val and terence. so, multi-task. xP
then, i cabbed home around 6.30pm
fawn was mad today!
in school, she was acting pathetic because she had to go home alone. -.-
then, at her house, she acted pervy and mad
when we were at the clubhouse, she said that today is 'irritating eve day'
kept on disturbing me the whole time
i was trying to study! -.-
but, in the end, i still managed to study 6 chapters!!!
while that girl only studied 1 chapter. -.-
studying currently... >.<
stress!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Love is supposed to make the world go round

But it didn't happen to my world.

Love made me turn upside down again and again

till i'm so dizzy and tired of it

But where do I stand?

nowhere in your heart...

It hurts me to see you go

Memories that struck me, broke my heart

I won't see you again, and that saddens me

But you ignoring me, is what hurts me

You've no idea how much hurt you've caused me

You don't know because you never care

I am just wasting my time on you

I want to move on, but I can't!

The reason is very obvious

It is because you mean so much to me

but you made me feel like a stranger...

-howcaniunloveyou?-

fawn gave it to me. x)

the back of my pullover. -.-
stupid fawnia sabai!

told you fawn was lame?!

still taking photos of me. -.-

studying not emo. (:

my turn! to take revenge! xD

melly's feet.
painted by... MOI! (:

i was bored! xP
supposed to be a rainbow! oh well! xP

2007-05-02T17:23:00.000+08:00

this sucks!
just now, i almost died during english paper 2
mr tan suddenly came in and changed the duration of the paper
actually miss toh wrote 1h 45 mins
then mr tan went to change it to 1h 40 mins
all of us freaked out!
5 minutes kills us!!!
OMG!!!
i finished all my comprehension then, i realised that the questions got something wrong
damn it!
i missed out 2 questions in front!!!!!!!!!!
WTH!!!
i had to redo the whole thing and it was already 9am!!!!
i hadn't do my summary yet!!!
but in the end, still managed to finish. haha
went to study add. maths and chemistry while waiting for fawn to finish her POA paper
then cabbed home waiting for my tuition teacher to come
i can't remember anything about the formula or whatever crap
and i still have to remember it until next year!
DAMN IT!!! >.<
i'm going to flunk my add. maths and chemistry!!!!!!!!!
OMG!!!!!!!!!! x(

i have a poem which popped into my mind last night

without you, what would my life turn out to be?
without you, my life will be meaningless
without you, there is no light in my life
without you, it's hard to breathe
without you, it's hard to believe
without you, how could I survive?
without you, i still have to continue living
without you, i still have to stand up
without you, i still have to move on
without you, i wouldn't have learn to love
without you, i still have to survive
without you, my heart wouldn't be so painful...

it's sort of contradicting...
hmm... never mind
things always have two points of view
negative and positive
i know it may sound emo, but this is how i feel.

-youdon'tunderstandmyfeelingsatall-

got this picture from dan's blog. taken on speech day. lol

2007-05-01T21:36:00.000+08:00

arghhhhhh!!!
damn irritated about something now. >.<
damn it! wth! x(
just now, meet fawn at westmall
then cabbed to mel's house then jurong point
walked to the library and it was CLOSED!
damn it! >.<
we sat outside the library like beggars! =X
something happened outside the library
we witnessed it ourselves
feel like slapping those three girls! seriously!!! >.<
after that, cabbed back to fawn's house
my mum, bro and maid went to watch spider man 3
no one was home, i didn't have the house key
went to fawn's house, the clubhouse to study
at first, we were crapping around, talking about the past and future
remembering the good times of my birthday bbq. lol
we had maggie mee for dinner
fawn's maid brought it down for us
the noodles was super spicy!
i died while eating it! >.<
i drank 2 bottles of drinks because of it. -.-
after dinner, we really studied
fawn was busy studying for her POA
while i was just taking random photos and also revising for add. maths
i can multi-task, okay! xP
around 9.30pm, my mum came to fetch me home
pouring my frustrations and troubles to someone now
arghhh!!! damn irritated!
lucky tomorrow's paper is english paper 2 and chinese LC
if not, i confirm 101% plus CHOP, cannot study
wth! this thing made me emo and affected my mood totally!
my fault lies somewhere. but where?
i maybe innocent, but i feel that i'm guilty somewhere somehow. -.-
wth!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
one last thing, HAPPY LABOUR DAY!
whatever. ):

-frustratedaboutitandfeelingguiltyaboutit-

2007-04-30T20:51:00.000+08:00

today's chinese paper was easy!

i spent 20 minutes on the gong han

then the rest of my time on the zuo wen

i wrote three stories on one topic

first, i wrote the first story

then i thought it was irrelevant

so, i wrote the second story

then, suddenly, i thought of a third story

i began writing on my third story

when i finished writing my third story, i realised that the ending was weird

then, i went back writing my second story. -.-

and i was only left with 10 minutes!!!

i panicked but i managed to finish it in time

i wrote a 'novel. my zuo wen consists of 3 papers and 6 pages. xP

i'm insane. -.-

chinese paper 2, the two comprehensions' stories made me cry.

it was so touching!!! >.<

can bvss have such good teachers? -.-

lol. in my dreams, man!

mugging chemistry now. lol

tomorrow no school! xD

something random: the neck of your leg is your ankle

i learnt that from ballet class just now. lol

i know it's lame. but think about, it's quite true. xP

when is he going back?!

the suspense is seriously killing me!!!!!!!!!

i need to talk to SOMEONE!!! >.<

wth! my dad is going overseas again tomorrow...

so sad. x(

going to watch my drama already

take care! ciaos~ (:

-waitingforyouisjustlikewaitingforsnowtoappearinsingapore-

something random. lol
234~ efm number. xD (i was still awake at 2.34am. lol)

2007-04-29T19:36:00.000+08:00

it's over and i feel so alone
this is a sadness i've never known
how did i let the sweetest of dreams slip away?
and i'm afraid the hurt is here to stay...
promises made, not meant to be broken
so many words still unspoken
tell me, how was i to know?!
it's over
never thought it would be
why in the world did this happen to me?
no one was right
we all made mistakes
i'm ready to do whatever it takes
please, don't let it be over...
tomorrow is chinese paper 1 & 2
didn't study at all
haiz... thinking of him the whole day
i'm really a fool to waste my time on him!
if any of you call me stupid, foolish, i won't blame you
because whatever you all say, is true about me
i'm really stupid to fall for such a person like him.
love is something which makes the world go around and make people happy
but love didn't make me happy
it hurt me, it caused a splinter in my heart.

-nothingwillbesameithasallchangedeverythingisover-

2007-04-28T16:07:00.000+08:00

went out with fawn to get our jackets
emo-ness is within me. lol
leave me alone
get out of my face
i'm tired and low
feeling so misplace
time for you to go
because i know i'm better off on my own
leave me alone...
there was the time i thought you are the one
what an illusion!
you were just trying to take control of me
i need to be free of this confusion
don't give me a guilt trip, because i'm so over it.
no more false hopes!
i've enough of it!
everyday seems to get harder to live
because of the growth of pain in my heart
enough is enough!
i've to give up on you, so that i won't hurt so much already

-emodoesn'tmeancuttingmyself-

skinny jeans + converse shoes + dark blue watch= emo
emo-ness
i was chewing on something

random.
bored

2007-04-27T19:47:00.000+08:00

omg! i'm going to fail my social studies already!!!!!!!!
i didn't have enough time to finish! i left one more factor!
wth!!! >.<
english paper 1 was okay
i had 15 minutes to rest. xP
after exam ended, efmv and ber went to mac and had our lunch
then, we walked around west mall
went to the library whil waiting for alvin
lol. alvin came. and fawn went off with him
mel and val came to my house
we watched Bring it on: All or nothing
nice movie! xD
after that, fawn called me
told me to go to west mall and find her
cabbed there with mel and val
had dinner at sakae sushi
we were all damn tired, then cabbed home
ahhh!!! one teacher called my mum when i was out!
wonder who the teacher is. miss toh?!
why did she call my mum for?!
i didn't even do anything wrong! >.<
today is the 8th month which he broke my heart
i don't want to say so much already
i want to go and watch my drama already!
being emo and moody is good
but sometimes, it just pisses people off

-afterallthistime,itwasn'tyou-

that val!
cover her face AGAIN!

guess. xD

see? due to ss paper, we wrote till our palms had a mark. -.-

mel was being emo. xP

she glared at fawn!

random. xP

2007-04-26T17:50:00.000+08:00

wahhhh!!! damn tired!!! xP
carried a total of 9 books to school today!
we wasted 25 minutes of social studies
all thanks to the damn whiteboard!
we had to wait for the uncle and auntie to finish cleaning the whiteboard with thinner
mrs choo didn't come! english was free period
no teacher came in either! xD
we were playing around like nobody's business. haha!!!
once the bell rang, we ran out of the classroom to the canteen
sorry mel, for splating the chilli onto your shirt, i swear it was an accident!
the wanton just dropped, it wasn't my fault!!! xP
then, went back to classroom
had f&n. slacked again
thanks efmK (ker jyn)!
thank you for helping me to carry my pencil case
my books were going to drop anything, so ker jyn helped me to carry my pencil case
THANK YOU!!! in return, mel had to lend him her watch. -.-
chemistry was fun!
ber, shuli and i were passing food around
it was damn fun! haha!!! xD
i finally understand chemistry already!!! x)
miss toh came in for e. maths
rushing us through all our worksheets
then had our add. maths remedial
got back our test, and i got 3 marks!!!
WTH!!! i actually could have gotten 8 more marks!
but thanks to my careless and reckless mistakes, i didn't! >.<
i was on the verge of crying, okay!
anyways, went to look for mr tan after that
efmv went through social studies
ker jyn came suddenly. lol
after that, val went home
efm cabbed to west mall
sat at coffee bean, ate our brunch and studied abit
bought new watches. xD
tomorrow is the first paper
english paper 1 & social studies!!! >.<
best of luck to those are having their exams tomorrow. x)
need to study and mug already.
i'm just awaiting for another day when you'll return. (:

-whenareyougoingtocomebackdoyouknowthatistillmissyouso-

the stack of books which i had to carry. -.-

2007-04-25T18:47:00.000+08:00

outside is raining cats and dogs!!!
omg! and i have a rash on my neck again!!!
whatever! -.-
damn it, i think i'm going to fail my add. maths test!!!
after school, had e. maths remedial and history remedial
history was slackening, but i learnt stuffs today!
haha. i don't think i'll drop history
history is fun. and i'll continue. (:
so mel, you CANNOT drop add. maths
fawn made a new name for me while we were cabbing home
TDQ- and only efm know what it stands for. xP
haha. miss toh is actually quite a nice teacher.
must be her form class to understand it. x)
wth!!! i need to rush through my f&n coursework!!!
need to hand in by tomorrow!!!
omg!!!! i also need to do my f&n practical workbook!!!!!!!
damn it! i shall end off here.

-waitingforthatonedaywhenyou'llcomeback-

2007-04-24T17:49:00.000+08:00

yay!!! finally our classroom's air-con was fixed!

haha. physics was funny. only chumi and i know why. xD

something happened during recess, and i won't mention it here.

e. maths quiz was like a homework. -.-

seriously!!!

miss toh said that we can refer to book or textbooks!

then, tomorrow bring back!

what kind of quiz is that?!

lol. but i was happily doing it till the damn bell rang. -.-

didn't go for break, stayed in class to do my e. maths. haha

mel and i were scribbling lots of craps in my history textbook

mr nazar was damn nice. xD

he said something random

- you guys, are weird. weather so good, can sleep. weather not good, also sleepy -

haha. mr nazar is a nice teacher. x)

went back to classroom and packed my bag

went to LT for physics remedial

stupid mr hong!!! =X

tease us like hell! >.<

re jiu jiao qing... my foot! -.-

please lah, mr hong!

when it ended, my mum came and fetched me to piano

i'm not playing the prelude and fugue for group A piece

i have decided to play another piece, Sonata in E major. xD

it's easier, i swear!

100% plus chop confirm that i'll be taking my theory exam on 3 November this year

practical exam will be this august.

hopefully, i can pass my grade 8. >.<

my last lap. haha. xD

the final graded exam before i move on to diploma. x)

3 more days to english paper 1 and social studies!!!

i'm going to die!!! WTH! >.<

i'm looking forward to this week and next week

not because of exams, some other reason. (:

val, cheer up, okay?

the three of us will always be there for you.

you'll always have me.

i love valissa yap shu xian!!! <33

something random, autard just joined efmvka!!! xD

e- evelyn

f- fawnia

m- melissa

v- valissa

k- ker jyn

a- autard (newest member)

-alliwantistoseeyouonemoretimejustonceismorethanenough-

I LOVE BOTH MY BALLET SLIPPERS & POINTE SHOES!!! x)

2007-04-23T20:38:00.000+08:00

today was a bad day for me during school hours

almost overslept! my mum didn't wake me up because she was still sleeping

i was woken up by my alarm clock. -.-

went out of my house and realised that i forgot to bring my ballet slippers

reached school. OMG!!!

the air-con wasn't fix yet!

damn it!!! i even brought my new pullover!

luckily mr chia brought us to LT for add. maths lesson

but still have to suffer one period of english

then went to 3e5 for chinese

froze in the classroom. -.-

went for recess, then chemistry

WTH!!! miss aida didn't let us unbutton our top button

got back our test and i got 23.5

actually i can get 24, but i mixed up nucleon number and electrons!!!

damn it!!! WTH! >.<

physics damn funny!!!!!!!

mr hong was like making up a story

haojie- melissa-bernice- louis

haha. i swear, it's damn funny!

got back our test and i got 13. -.-

stupid results! how am i going to pass my combined science?!

am i going to get lousy results for my MYE?!

assembly was fun for the first part and boring for the second part

after school, efm cabbed to heeren

ate our lunch at the Village

the food there, is super nice!!!

i swear!!! it is damn nice!!!

worth going there. x)

we were like savouring our chocolate fondu

then, we went to take neoprints

on our way up the escaletor, a guy was sort-of calling us

when we went up, he told us to go down quickly

and said some craps

but, we didn't go down. then he was like, "haiya! never mind."

lol. it was random. -.-

mel claimed that he wanted me or fawn's number

fawn was claiming that he wanted me or mel's number

i was like, "whatever lah, nothing happen, can already."

cabbed to mel's house and then to my ballet

i was 15 minutes late! but luckily, they were trying out the pointe shoes

I FINALLY GOT MY POINTE SHOES!!! HAPPY!!! x)

haha. mel and fawn was being damn perv when we were at heeren

i didn't understand a single thing they were talking about

and one-third of the conversation, was about me!

wth!!! they refused to tell me!!! >.<

stupid girls! =X

i want to go and study already.

ciaos. (:

-it'snothatidon'twanttoforgetyou,it'shardtodoso-

12 April 2007 (at mel's house)

today- 23 April 2007 (at heeren)
YUMMY!!! (:
green & yellow. should know what i mean. xP

fawn was lame. -.-

2007-04-22T17:43:00.000+08:00

All I Ask of You- from Phantom of the Opera. ((:

[ Raoul ]
No more talk of darkness
Forget these wide-eyed fears
I'm here, nothing can harm you
my words will warm and calm you
Let me be your freedom
let daylight dry your tears.
I'm here,with you, beside you,
to guard you and to guide you...

[ Christine ]
Say you love me every waking moment
turn my head with talk of summertime...
Say you need me with you,now and always...
promise me that all you say is true
That's all I ask of you...

[ Raoul ]
Let me be your shelter
Let me be your light.
You're safe
No one will find you
your fears are far behind you ...

[ Christine ]
All I want is freedom
a world with no more night ...
and you always beside me
to hold me and to hide me...

[ Raoul ]
Then say you'll share with me
one love, one lifetime ...
Let me lead you from your solitude...
Say you need me with you here, beside you...
Anywhere you go, let me go too
Christine, that's all I ask of you...

[ Christine ]
Say you'll share with me
one love, one lifetime ...
say the word and I will follow you...

[ Christine & Raoul ]
Share each day with me, each night, each morning ...

[ Christine ]
Say you love me ...

[ Raoul ]
You know I do ...

[ Raoul & Christine ]
Love me, that's all I askof you ...

(They kiss)

[ Raoul & Christine ]
Anywhere you go let me go too ...
Love me.
That's all I ask of you ...

2007-04-22T17:08:00.000+08:00

i'm suffering from sleep lack!!!
didn't sleep well last night. >.<
i was woken up by my mum at 8am
then, bathe and got ready to go for piano
after piano ended, went home
waited for fawn to be ready
cabbed to her house and heeren
had our breakfast-cum-lunch at billy bombers again
something random: fawn was eating her garlic bread and said, " yummy!"
suddenly, an old angmoh man was blowing his nose damn loudly!
fawn almost lost appetite. haha. xD
then, went to take neoprints
and bought stuffsf
then, walked to wisma
I ALMOST DIED!!!
4 cars almost ran over me. >.<
i jaywalked from paragon over to taka
i was 3 inches to death's door! xP
i'm not kidding! it's die-able!!! >.<
went to topshop
and bought clothes
we got another skinny jeans! xD
haha. loves skinny jeans- quoted from MELISSA CHANG. <33
then, walked over to taka
the taxi stand was packed!
the queue was like, OH MY GOSH!
we decided to walk to heeren
and GREAT!
it rained! >.<
we had to walk in the rain
i realised that mandarin hotel's taxi stand was empty
i told fawn then cabbed home from there
we were taking photos the whole way. xP
VALISSA YAP SHU XIAN!!!!!!!!!!!
must take care!!! drink more water, okay?
rest more! tomorrow's choir SYF
cannot miss this chance. health comes first. don't think about SYF
REST. DRINK. SLEEP. (:
MELISSA CHANG CHOOI YAN MARIE!!!!!!!!!!!
miss you loads!!! xP
one weekend never see you already!
ahhhhhhhh!!! didn't even get to talk to you on the phone
damn saddening... x(
never mind. see you tomorrow. haha. x)
i've decided not to think of you
i've decided to erase all the memories of you
i've decided to forget about the shadow of my past
i've decided to unlove you
i've decided to give up on you
i've decided to answer a question which i was asked long time ago.
my answer is yes. i'm willing to let you go. i won't regret doing so
this is better for you and me. i won't be hurt anymore
you won't have a ghost haunting on you day and night

-mymindisallmadeupichoosethispathletmecompleteit-

2007-04-21T23:47:00.000+08:00

HAPPY 13th MONTH TO ME for liking him. x(
went to watch Phantom of the opera at esplanade
with my mum, bro, grams and grandad
the opera was damn nice!!!!!!
i'm addicted to the songs especially the Phantom of the Opera and All I Ask Of You
that's why i changed my blog songs. xD
totally didn't regret watching it!
i love it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
it was worth watching. x)
the effect, the background, the actings
everything was damn nice!
the chandelier was so real!
i was so amazed by them!
i can't stop listening to their songs
OMG!!! i seriously want to watch the opera again!
i don't mind watching it over and over again
ahhh!!!!!!
i love the actors and actresses! xD
I JUST LOVE IT!
don't know what to say already
today's my 13th month liking him
i better stop loving him already
it's pointless doing so
he doesn't even know, he doesn't care
he can't be bothered with this kind of 'childish' acts
haiz...
never mind. it's okay

-youcanhurtmedesertmeidon'tcareanymore-

2007-04-20T22:17:00.000+08:00

wahhhh!!!!!!!!!!
i'm damn tired but i'm crazy. xP
lol. today was speech day
school ended at 10.20am
waited for fawn to finish her geography remedial
our class the air-con broke down. -.-
then, efm cabbed to heeren
bought our pullovers from NUM
and went to Billy Bombers to have tour lunch
my stomach was bloated!
then, went to take neoprints
after that, mel and i cabbed back to school
and fawn waited for her dear at heeren
when i was about to reach school, haojie called me to tell me i was late already
i freaked out like hell
rushed to change into my full u
lucky rina was also with me
but she lost her beret
omg. ran to fall in
got scolded like mad. -.-
then wore the line yard thingy and gloves
brendan, liana, kiat lun, norsiah and i went to practise
the sun was freaking hot!
i have a rash now... -.-
stupid! >.<
okay... then my legs were also damn tired
got some misfortunes, i don't want to say also
then, it started to rain
we went under the shelter
slacked around there
thanks inspector zaki for bringing us burgers and ice lemon tea for our dinner
we were starving
and he talked to us while the three of us took turns to eat
it was fun talking to him. x)
then had briefing, pumpings
changed into mufti and waited for mel
after that, we waited for val to be released from choir
while waiting, i dragged mel to the canteen
i was pushing mel here and there
damn fun! xD we were high and played around like mad people. xP
haha. after that, walked to mac
haojie accompanied mel home
then, we ate our dinner and cabbed home
quite stress out with what happened just now
but now, i'm okay already. haha
lol. where are you?
i expected the expected.
you didn't turn up, you don't even bother.
shall not think of him today
want to sleep earlier today. xD
was it really that obvious?!
i doubt so. only one person realised it
*phews* lucky! xP
cannot let the whole world know! >.<

-i'mtryingnottoloveyoulikeishould-

2007-04-19T16:57:00.000+08:00

today was again quite a bad day for me.
woke up and almost fell down from the stairs. -.-
went out of my house and realised that i left my jacket in the house
mum lectured me on the way to school. -.-
reached school being emo
recess is quite bad
i was quite moodless
during f&n, mrs ngiam was freakingly nagging at us AGAIN!
so, she thinks that it's very fun to nag at us?!
chemistry is bad too. -.-
had a test, think i might fail. xP
there was this question about the experiment thingy
i was stuck at that question.
hope that i won't fail. >.<
before miss toh came in, we pleaded miss aida to teach us some e. maths stuffs
after that, had our e. maths test
it was quite difficult! >.<
ARGHHHHHHHHHH!!! that, i confirm will fail! x(
100 plus chop! -.-
i was quite pissed off after school was dismissed
then, guys in my class pissed me even more
i'm so sorry melly.... >.<
i didn't meant to take it out on you. x(
fawn went home early because she went to make her IC today
damn sorry if i show anyone attitude today
i'm seriously not in the mood today
i also don't know why.
i have to find a way to cheer myself up
i can't be depressed and emo
seriously, i'm scaring alot of people
and my head has a ba-lu-ku still. -.-
damn pain! >.<
i'm on my way to giving up on him
and moving on without him. (:

-youwillnotexistinmylifeagain-

2007-04-18T21:05:00.000+08:00

today was a damn freaking bad day for me!
it's even worse than yesterday!
whatever, i don't want to say it out here
cried in school, fawn was there
then efm accompanied me to the toilet.
after school, waited for fawn to finish decorating her table tennis notice board
when it was finished, efm and haojie went to pizza hut to have our dinner
alot of random and funny things happened while we were there.
i won't mention it here too
after we finished our dinner, mel and haojie went back first
fawn and i shopped around westmall then cabbed home
this is very frustrating!!!
i banged my forehead against the table and the wall
i seriously am damn fed-up with everything
efm had a bad 22nd month. x(
mel made me cry too. x(
and others unmentionable.
no matter what happens, we'll always be efm
efm now and forever. <33
i love fawnia sabai and melissa chang!
giving up on him is very hard
i'm trying seriously.
i hate this!!!
LIFE IS NEVER FAIR!
GET A LIFE! -.-
HAPPY 22nd MONTH TO EFM! <33
even though today was a bad day, i'll always be there for the both of you
thanks for lending me your shoulder when i cried
thanks melly for hugging me numerous times (even though it was in front of mrs choo)
thanks fawn for being my 'les' partner just now. x)

-thefactisthefact,justacceptitthewayitis-

2007-04-17T17:14:00.000+08:00

today was quite a bad day for me. x(
i was emo from the second i woke up
chumi (lekshmi) was also in a bad mood today.
we were isolated by ber and shuli (chinese dance SYF) and joel (band SYF)
PE sucks! because we didn't a single thing!
no kickboxing. ):
i didn't know what to do for the phyics test
when mr hong said time's up, i didn't bother to do anymore
i was prepared to fail anyway.
recess was bad too
some idiotic sec 2s went to cut my queue
and there is nothing i can do, but kept quiet. -.-
history, mr nazar went for course and ditched us
then everything ended earlier due to speech day
about 2.20pm, i went back to class and packed my bag
i didn't attend e. maths remedial and went for my f&n practical exam
my f&n practical exam is worst of the day!
stupid steamer! i think it's spoilt!
i cooked Fish Pinwheels and Fried long beans
my long beans was a success, the fragrant came out just nice
the fish pinwheels was a headcahe for me
i had to grill the tomatoes, wth!
i put my omelette, inside is the fish, into the steamer
the recipe said to steam it for 10 minutes
after 10 minutes i wanted to take it out, but it wasn't cook yet
more than 30 minutes already! my fish isn't cook yet!
CAN THIS DAY GET ANY WORSE?!
seriously! this sucks!
at least, mrs ngiam said that my dishes look nice
to make things even worse, i couldn't make it for my piano lesson!
all thanks to f&n! >.<
i so wanted to go for piano lesson, okay!
so, had to postpone it to this sunday. -.-
my mum came to school and fetched me
i showed her my dishes
she said that my long beans was nice.
haha. thanks mummy! x)
the chilli which i pounded had splated on my blouse. -.-
she tried it and said it was nice too. xD
i haven't finish my add. maths homework yet!!!
OMG~ i'm so going to get a scolding from mr chia tomorrow. xP
arghhhhhhh! whatever!
to make it even worse than before, i have 3 periods of f&n tomorrow
yay! *claps hand* *rolls eye*
not that i hate f&n, i dislike when mrs ngiam constantly nag at us for no reason!
i posted a picture of my long beans
i didn't take photo of my fish pinwheels. xP
and there is one random picture. x)
my mum told me that she and my dad had decided to put a shelter above my balcony
told them that they should have think of it when we first move to this place. -.-
but no!!! they don't listen. now, they DO! -.-
pathetic! i'm quite emo now. 70% due to him...
20% due to something else. 10% due to exam stress
i shouldn't think so much.
i want to go and bathe already
i smell like oil, duh! i just came from the kitchen. -.-
i don't qualified as a housewife, even though my mum said i can. -.-
congrats to the band for obtaining a SILVER.
my shifu (master) JOEL FAN HAN YAO~ your BEST birthday present for you. xD
oh ya, HAPPY 5th MONTH TO FAWNIA and ALVIN!!!
and HAPPY 1st MONTH TO MELISSA and HAO JIE!!!
the four of you must last long, okay? (:
love my fawnsa and melsa. muacks to you guys. <33
and dan, the three of us are NOT lesbian. (:

-youhavechangedmaybeididtoobutmyfeelingshaveyettochangeforyou-

2007-04-16T20:44:00.000+08:00

i'm damn tired!!!!!!!
seriously... xP
after school ended, went to change into full-u
took attendance for the sec 3 and 2s
something pathetic, only TWO sec 2 cadets turn up
where are the rest? -.-
after that, we were scattered
brendan, liana and i are in-charge of directing the cars where to park
we get to wear white gloves and wear that line thingy (whatever you called it)
the line thingy is seriously damn cool! xD
haha. okay, i'm lame. xP
i kept on laughing when we were practising
i just couldn't stop laughing
hopefully, i won't laugh till so obvious this friday. xP
anyway, we practised with norsiah and kiat lun
they are in charge of opening the car doors of GOH (guest of honor)
then, around 5 plus, we ended
cabbed to my ballet
changed into my leotard and tights
fauna wong, you came late, not my fault! xP
we did an execrise on the bar which requires us to put our leg on the bar
and guess what?!
RAQUEL LIM PEI JUAN, injured my finger!
i was putting my hand on the bar and listening to what miss tan was talking
she happily placed her foot on my hand
damn pain, okay! xP
you better pay for my medical fees. joking. x)
i can't wait for speech day! xD
tomorrow is my f&n cooking practical exam
i'm damn nervous!!!
today i'm a nerd, because i brought 7 books back
history, physics, english, f&n, chemistry, add.maths textbook, add.maths 10 years series
my books were slipping down almost every minute when i was carrying it
from np, to ballet now home... I STINK! >.<
i want to bathe already! can't stand myself being unclean. xP
by the way, HAPPY 15th BIRTHDAY TO JOEL FAN (my shifu) & KAREN! (:

-i'vemadeupmymindandiwillforgetyounomatterhowlongittakes-

2007-04-15T20:19:00.000+08:00

still coughing... -.-
my nose isn't blocked anymore! xD
went out with emv today
first, went to St. Mary's church and meet mel
we did our VE project, cabbed to west mall and meet val there
after that, we went to Mac and we saw weilun and darren there. lol
we cabbed to vivo city and watched Love and Honour
guess where we were sitted at?!
the first row. -.-
i was dozing off and fawn called me in the middle of the movie
so, i was talking to her on the phone the whole time
don't worry. i'm considerate enough to talk very soft. x)
i cried at a few parts. xP
don't want to talk about it.
very embarrassing. >.<
after the movie ended, we went to Topshop
and bought some shirts
after that, cabbed home
arghhhhhh!
damn pathetic!
i need to iron my full u. -.-
tomorrow, have the full dress rehearsal for speech day
wth! road marshall also need to rehearse?! -.-
lame. >.<
i'm like so not in the mood to iron.
ahhhh!!! no choice!!!
WTH! don't feel like getting up and iron
lazy to polish boots. -.-
might be late for ballet tomorrow. x(

-itisnotmeanttobethisway,soi'llforgetyou-

2007-04-14T22:07:00.000+08:00

HAPPY 7th BIRTHDAY TO MY DEAREST BROTHER, EUGENE GOH TIAN ZAO!!! (:
in the afternoon, he went for art class
then, fawn and i went to Causeway Point to get his birthday cake
after that, cabbed home
celebrate his birthday
cut cake, eat cake, my bro opens his presents
puzzles- from me. x)
PSP- from my mum. (lucky fella! xP)
racing car- from my grams.
remote-control helicopter- from my grandad
my dad wasn't home
he is still overseas... x(
damn saddening...
after that, we went to Hyatt to have our dinner
the food there, most of them are very spicy.
i almost died when i took the first bite of the spicy crab!
my bro was playing with his PSP since he opened it
lol. after that, came back home
i'm damn full... my stomach is bloating!!!!!!!
stupid medicine! i'm coughing even more because of it!
i'm not taking anymore medicine!
arghhhh!!!
isn't cough medicine supposed to make me STOP coughing?
well, this cough medicine isn't.
i want to stop coughing now!!!!!!!!!!!!
and dan, please stop being so lame
by the way, he AIN'T my boyfriend
he's my 2e2 classmate who likes to disturb me for NO reason. -.-
haha. okay
i've decided to move on with the future
i won't think of him anymore
i'll forget EVERYTHING about him

-idon'tneedyouinmylifeanymore-

2007-04-13T22:11:00.000+08:00

why does all medicine taste like crap?!
seriously!!! >.<
just consumed the cough syrup which i bought just now
tastes like crap lah! eewww!
i wanted to vomit when it entered my mouth
ask fawn to intro me, she told me that she got hers at the doctor. -.-
ask val, she told me to consult a doctor instead. -.-
ask terence, and this is the result. THE MEDICINE SUCKS!!!!!!!
i'm sorry! no offence! =X
but seriously, i can't stand the taste lah!
arghhhhh!
i hate being sick! lol
my nose is damn blocked!
i kept on coughing non-stop!
helppppppppp!

-irefusetotakeanymedicinefromnowon-

2007-04-13T20:12:00.000+08:00

had my chinese oral exam just now

i had to admit, it was quite easy

lol. mdm loy was my examiner

i expected mrs mok, but it turned out to be mdm loy

i was like, "OMG! my own chinese teacher! how suay can i be?!"

she was nodding her head the whole way while i was reading

for the conversation thingy, she didn't ask me alot of questions

before i left, she commented that my chinese is quite good

i'm a good girl (lol!!! =X)

and my chinese can be better. xD

haha. so, i've a feeling that i won't fail the oral.

went to study area and waited for fawn and val

i faked val about something

i was holding her ipod for her while she went for her oral

then, when she came back, i told her that ipod got confiscated by miss chua

lol. and she believed me! she was on the verge of crying!

in the end, i gave it back to her

and she was 'blind' not to see her ipod, because her ipod is a pouch

it was camoflaged in my jacket. haha. xD

then, we cabbed to jurong point

watched Meet the Robinson's

i started crying when the movie started. lol

after that, close to the ending, i cried again

and fawn was like," eve! get ready the fish tank!"

quoted from the movie: "forget about the past and look forward to the future."

this is seriously what i should do. (:

then, we went to delifrance to have our dinner

i wanted to do my homework there!

haha. and fawn didn't want to acknowledge me! xP

lol. then cabbed home

damn saddening...

nabilah told me that today was the sec 4s' last training

and we had to miss it!

but they did campcraft, so nothing interesting. =X

had a fun day with efv. (:

miss toh rushed through matrices within 2 periods

and i actually understand! xP

i bought my cough medicine already

wonder if it really works. xP

i refuse to drink the SOUR herbal tea again!

trust me, it's sour not bitter. and it tastes like crap!

tomorrow is my brother's 7th birthday

shit! i didn't buy wrapping paper to wrap his presents! -.-

arghhh! heck! tomorrow go and buy.

by the way, HAPPY INTERNATIONAL FRIENDSHIP DAY! (:

-forgetaboutthepastandlookforwardtothefuture-

today.

11 April 2007 (after nafa test)

2007-04-12T19:18:00.000+08:00

today was a super bored day
at least, it was spent together with my beloved efm! <33
went to westmall and had lunch at KFC
after that, we cabbed to mel's house
we were rotting there!
then, mel went to get ready to meet haojie and her violin lesson
after that, fawn and i cabbed back together
i bought a new converse school shoe. lol
just now, went for NP uniform setting
pathetic! all of my sizes~ xP
not really much changes
but i seriously need to change my boots!
my old one was going to crack soon
tomorrow, have chinese oral exam
arghhhhhhhh~ so means that don't need to go for NP
some peeps said that tomorrow is the sec 4s' last training
okay... xP
we'll miss them alot. and thanks for all these years of guidance.
helped out with the sec 1s with their uniforms just now
lol. most of them are super blur!
i'm serious!!! they're like gong-kia, don't know anything. =X
no offence. xP
i'm coughing like crap
my voice is still crappy!
how to have oral tomorrow?!
everytime i cough, my stomach will be damn pain
i also don't know. -.-

-i'vedecidedtoletgoandforgetaboutthepastandmoveonwiththefuture-

2007-04-11T20:40:00.000+08:00

suddenly random
i'm having fun doing both e.maths and add.maths
i also don't know why. xP
just now, during add. maths, i had a fun time doing the questions and i can do them all by myself!
so happy!!! normally, i'll just give up. lol
had my NAFA test today
my results are like crap!
sit-ups: 42 (5 points)
standing broad jump: 172 (4 points)
sit 'n' reach: 51cm (5 points)
inclined pull-ups: 17 (5 points)
shuttle run: 12.8 (3 points)
it's damn pathetic!
my pull-ups was a miracle, okay!
normally, i will do until 10, then i'd give up and i'll always get only 4 points
but this time, it was a total miracle! xP
after that, went to coffee bean with fawn and mel
slacked there. fawn was day-dreaming, and mel was listening to her ipod
i was doing my e.maths homework. xP
haha. i'm retarded. xD
after that, we slacked somemore
until about 6.30pm, we went to sakae sushi for dinner
after dinner, we went to Watts In and bought earrings
then, fawn and i cabbed home
fawn, don't be so sad already, okay?
cheer up, things will turn out just fine. (:
no matter what, efm will always be there for you. <33
and to MELISSA CHANG!
good luck for your F&N practical cooking exam tomorrow
jiayou!!! must cook until it is super tasty, okay?
don't disappoint fawn and i!
YOU CAN DO IT! xD
thank you brendan for helping me to polish my boots.
i know you've tried your best already.
i think i can just leave it to crack. xP
this friday, have chinese oral exam!!!
OMGOMGOMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
actually, i'm not very nervous about it.
and i miss VALISSA YAP because she wasn't with us! x(
need to go and study for tests already. xP
also need to complete my homework,
i'm still having flu and cough
but at least i can talk already.

-allidocannowistoforgetaboutyouslowly-

2007-04-10T17:32:00.000+08:00

i'm seriously sick!
flu, block nose, damn bad cough, sore throat until cannot talk
to make it worse, i've an ulcer too! -.-
but seriously, i didn't talk the whole day
whoever talked to me, i just whispered to the person
and mel was having a hard time communication with me today
so were lekshmi and bernice. xP
the whole day, my throat was damn pain
and brendan, kiat lun and louis had to tease me because i can't talk!
arghhh!!!
hope that my throat gets better by tomorrow.
i hate whispering! no one can hear me and i need to repeat until the person can hear. -.-
it's damn pathetic! >.<
i've made the greatest sin of my life yesterday
i'm seriously damn sorry and i've let my parents down
i didn't expect for this to happen just because i was pms, attituded and emo
my parents found out that i'm suffering from anorexia too. -.-
urrgggghhhhh!!!!!!!!
this is killing me, seriously...
even though i've apologised to my parents, i still can't forgive myself
stuffs that aren't supposed to happen, IS happening!
i don't want it to happen!
i don't want this to be the birthday present for my brother!
i want this: yi jia si kou, kai kai xin xin de guo sheng huo.
i can't forgive myself!!!
partly i was more attituded than i used to be, is because of him
i'm not blaming him. i'm blaming myself for thinking so much and not getting my facts right!
I HATE THIS BRAIN OF MINE! seriously! >.<
although my dad did threatened me lots of stuffs, i apologised to him
he used to tell me this story when i was young, i told it to my bro
he thinks that i might think that this story is lame
but seriously, for all of you reading this, you'll think it's retarded and not worth reading
but to me, it's a meaningful story for me
there was this old woman who lived deep in the forest
she lived all alone and her only companion were her dog and cat
and she loved to eat chilli.
every rainy day, she would eat double the amount of what she usually ate
one stormy day, she ate double but slightly more
and it was very spicy!
she didn't have any water left!
what could she do?!
so, she went out and drink from the rain.
seriously, this will be a lame story for you all
when my dad reminded me of how much fun we had when i was young, i started crying even more
now, i'm crying as i'm typing all these
i seriously do miss my dad!
why can't he be like other dads, don't go overseas so often?!
my mum is another story.
everything she's ever done for me, i'm glad that she did it
after this incident, i feel that i've became more sensible
this incident could have been prevented, only if i've not kept everything to myself
i should have at least told someone, but i didn't.
if i did, i wouldn't have vent all my anger and attitude on my parents
for that, the more i cannot forgive myself!
i'm the reason of what happened
i'm the cause of everything!
i've hurt my parents emotionally
i heard my mum cried last night, my dad packing his luggages (because he's going overseas again.)
i ran up to my room and cried. i couldn't sleep at all
what kind of daugher am i?!
maybe, i'm not fit to be a human.
i must be a devil for doing so many hurtful stuffs!
perhaps i'm better off dead.
i shouldn't even be in this world at all!

-everythingismyfaultiseriouslycan'tforgivemyself-

2007-04-09T21:17:00.000+08:00

I HATE MY FAMILY!!!!!!!
i feel like running away, okay?!
my parents scolded me and my bro didn't even help me!
normally he would, but today he didn't!
this is my first time my dad is scolding me like nobody's business
i was threatened by him.
my mum isn't even home to protect me
well... even if she is, she won't protect me either
i don't feel welcome in this home anymore
my dad doesn't even understand how i feel!
he is rarely home, how would he know?!
he says he knows, but the truth is, HE DOESN'T!
he is only home once a month
and that once a month which he comes back home, he only stays for 3-4 days
this has happened to me since i was a little girl
till now, i can still remember
how much does he know about me?!
FINE! don't want to give me money, don't give!
I DON'T CARE ANYMORE!
i seriously feel like running away from home
but where can i go to?
nowhere.
i feel so alone.
i'm unloved by everyone
first, the guy i like, broke my heart into million pieces
second, my family
everyone just like to ditch me
i guess that is my destiny
i'll have to depend on myself, i guess...
from now onwards, there won't be any pillar of support for me
whatever i do now, i'm off on my own
nobody cares about me.
this is my life, i'll just accept it the way it is.
i feel so cold and lonely...

-thisisn'twhatichosethisisn'twhatiwanted-

2007-04-09T20:29:00.000+08:00

okay... my blogger has no problem for now.
weets~! xD
school was boring today!
mr hong didn't come for physics
then we were crapping around and the relief teacher didn't even care!
we even locked joel out of his own classroom
we didn't let him in!
haha. assembly was quite okay
we watched videos of the OSL India
and had a talk with mrs tan
the talk was boring...
without mel to crap with beside me, i'd be bored to death!!!
after school, efm, haojie cabbed to heeren
had our lunch at billy bombers
that meal bloated our stomachs, i swear!
then, fawn and i cabbed to wheelock place
fawn went to meet alvin
and i went to buy my ipod. xD
haha. happy happy!!! x)
then, we cabbed back to heeren to look for mel and haojie
but they were nowhere to be seen
so, we cabbed back to wheelock place hopeing to see them there
but we didn't.
in the end, we cabbed to my ballet and fawn went home
fauna wong!!! i was before you!!! HAHA!!! xD
today, we finally got our new black leotard!!!
HAPPY HAPPY!!!
now, i won't need to wear my old red leotard anymore! x)
pointe shoes still need to wear
because miss tan imported it from somewhere. lol
we stretched our legs at the bar AGAIN!
but, this time, i don't feel any pain at all! xP
i swear, raquel was swearing all kinds of vulgarities while she was at it. -.-
before class started, zenia left her bag of bun pins at the studio
miss tan stared sternly at her
zenia- sorry!!! sorry!!!
fauna- sorry no cure. need to go and buy medicine.
miss tan- ya ya ya!!! so true!
lol. that was something random. xP
is there going to be a history test tomorrow???
i don't even know. OMG!
i'm quite attituded at the moment because of my mum
arggggghhhhhhhhhh!!! never mind
i need to go and eat dinner already
i'll try my best to forget everything about him.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY SAI SUN NU, MA PEI YING!!! (:

-it'ssoeasytofallinlovebuthardtofalloutofit-